This evening I’ve taken the time to just sit back and think about things. It has truly been a cozy evening. I have a pecan pie scented candle lit, my feet are kicked up, I’m relaxed, and I have Pandora shuffling music on my TV. Life is good, right?
That leads me to my next point. I have recently fallen back into a negative state of mind. I hate when I go through that phase, and yes, it can be avoided. Life just seemed to be happening – from issues with my truck, to frustrations at work, to whatever the case may be at that point in time. Then a wake up call happened – The shooting in Newtown, Connecticut. I’m not going to get into a full discussion about it, but it was a shove into reality for me. My problems seemed VERY insignificant compared to what the people of that town were going through. My truck got fixed (it was just a busted water pump), work frustrations are blessings in disguised… I mean, after all, I could very well not have a job and no income, right? It’s sad that it takes someone else’s tragedy to make me realize it, but at the moment, things really aren’t that bad, regardless of how I may view situations.
The holiday season should bring the best out in people. After work today, I stopped off at the grocery store to pick up some things for our Christmas dinner. A sweet elderly woman was slowly moving down an aisle, and each person she passed, she smiled and told them Merry Christmas. It warmed my heart so much. On the flip side of the coin, I could have gotten frustrated with her for not moving faster and being in the way, but I took a moment to see and hear her joy. Most people responded with positivity.
It is going to be a small Christmas for us this year. My brother and his family came down for Thanksgiving. I’m thankful for the wonderful family I do have, and even though we won’t have a house full for this holiday, at least we do have a home to gather in. We will have a turkey (which I got free as a gift from my place of employment), all of the sides, and amazing desserts (one recipe I’m trying for the first time!)
I guess searching for blessings was heavy on my heart tonight. There’s been so much sadness in the news lately that I had to get my mind on something else. I have amazing friends, some far away and some close by, some I’ve never met in person, and some who I have known for years. As I look at a shelf near me, I see all of the Christmas cards that were sent to me this year. It’s full of various styles, colors, and pictures with personalized messages inside them for me. I mailed out a big stack myself, and as I placed stamps on each one, I didn’t think about all of the postage I had to pay for – I thought about all of the great people I was sending each one to and how I’m glad I went through a ton of stamps to mail them all out.
I recently had a conversation with a new friend I found through my writing. Without even really “knowing” me, they helped me out just by their kind words and positive attitude. I jokingly posted a picture of some candy that looked like coal that was in my stocking at work. Just as I would expect, they responded and said that eventually it becomes a diamond. I hope one day I can get to the point that with whatever response I have, it will always be positive like that. That has spurred up another thought in my head. A couple of years ago I was walking the Texas Tech campus with a friend and he pointed out all of the beautiful flowers around the school. I responded with “They’re just gonna die anyway.” Looking back on that memory, I have to laugh. I don’t know what I was thinking when I said that. He was trying to admire the hard work the Texas Tech groundskeepers put into it, and I just let that spew out of my mouth without a second thought. I’m glad I don’t do that now.
I guess the main point of this blog entry is trying to find positive in everything. That pile of dishes in the sink? At least you are blessed with food to cause that dreaded chore that I avoid like the plague. The busted water pump on your pickup? Hey, you have a vehicle to drive. That 6AM alarm blaring when you’re dead asleep? You’ve got a job to go to and a steady income, and though it isn’t making you rich in the least bit, at least you have something. So many others aren’t as fortunate.
I want to wish all of you a happy holiday season. May the New Year bring you love, happiness, and good fortune. Keep that chin up! I know, I know… I need to take my own advice!